However, this trip was different in that I realized that I contain, within self, the wherewithal to relinquish those feelings of dread that weave their way into musings about my home-town.
The concept of the four formless states (the four arupajhanas) was presented as a means of addressing those inner states of anger. The goal is to not struggle against the inner states. They are to be observed, accepted and resolved, on their own terms.
Between his birth and his latter end, man passes through four chief stages of development, - infancy, adolescence, old age and death.
Congratulations. The New Year has begun. The games have started.